2day 14/7..haha..another sat..how times flies...hmm..so far my ptp phase is over le..coming week is bmt phase le..so fast time flies...four weeks have passed...over tat week..i thought a lot in there...n i learnt a lot of stuff..hmm..the training is ok lolx..but sometimes..i really think that i am a burden to my bunk mates...haiz...although they dun blame me..but deep down in my heart..i still blame myself..hmm..issit 2 late to change..i wonder..but i will try to overcome all obstacles in ns asap...i feel that my body cant take it for the marching session..only 4 clicks...haiz...i really feel like falling apart n lying down..hmm..sometime i really want to give up..life is tough..i just think that i feel positive in the past..on fri..i actually cried on one corner on myself...they asked me what happen..i dun wish to tell them..coz i dun want to be a burden to them..they already have problems of their own...i cant be selfish n trouble them anymore..i just wish i can rot each day without worries...hmm..training everyday will sure die 1..haha..i got bring my mp3 player..recently bought a creative zen neeon mp3 player n nokia battery..n went whitesand to eat dinner at hong kong restaurant..expensive n food okok only lolx..haha..2day went spore discovery center to learn more abt army..very bo liao 1..waste my time only..after that took bus to jurong point n eat kfc with my friends...hehe after that went stroll around..hehe..quite enjoyable with my mates around..chat happily sia..but sometimes i feel that i am a burden..i just dunno y i feel tat way..do i really have no confidence of myself le ma..i try not to chat with her so much also..but in the end still sms her..haiz...think cant 4get her easily also...not easy..hmm..abt the thing in jurong poitn..we went to c electrical appliances n latest gadgets..haha..got differences sia..after that we went to take mrt home around 1 hr time..hehe..went home unpack my stuff n go out again..dun really wish to stay at home..in army sooo boring..hehe..then went tm all these..after that went to bugis..haha..quite enjoy also..hmm..soo many ppl lolx..c alot of stuff..mostly gal stuff..haha..diaoz..hmm..tml my mates ask me go eat sakae sushi..haha..i c 1st ba...hee..=) about ns..sometimes i really feel life giving up..curse n swear at ppl..haiz..but i have no choice but to tolerate..life is like that..especially when i am in ns..summore no freedom at all..this week got punishment n book in early timing sia..soo sad..THE END~~